I don’t regret anything about my past, nor do I think any thing I did and with whom was a waste of time…I am grateful for every single moment, because each second, minute, hour and day has made me who I am today! My Path was created by me, carved by my own foot steps, like a river carves it’s pathway cutting thru a mountain, it never turns back, or regrets, it just keeps moving forward!
The distance between us makes me wonder each day. There could be a million miles between us but I would still feel your presence around me. You are so far away from me but yet so close to my heart. I can spend blissful moments wrapped around your memory by just closing my eyes and the distance disappears . It’s the love that you have taught me and have given me that lets me know, even though we have miles between us and we cannot spend time together, we are always forever a part of each other. Even from a distance I can close my eyes and feel as if we were never apart. I know you are with me where ever I go, I can feel your smile and hear your laughter. I see you in the simplest little things that surround me, The sun setting as the sky turns to a milky pink with a glow of azure, Catching a song on the radio at just the right time to hear the part that you always sang loudly, A scent that fills the air. I smile because I know it was you who taught me about love, I love you for being the wonderful person that you are and were and for the beauty you brought into my life.
I truly miss you and often think what would you tell me to do at this moment or what words of wisdom you would give me when I feel afraid or uncertain. I learned to trust your courage and your bravery. I look to you still as an example and recall your words to help me even now. I wonder do you know what an impact you have had? Do you know just how much you have influenced me? The distance between us makes me wonder each day…
If you really knew me…
You would know
Yet you chose to use sharp words
into a million broken pieces…
You…cannot explain the look
fall to my knees, hurt as I turn away from
You to hide my tears…
Instead of walking up behind me to hold me
but I won’t bleed, at least not in front of you anymore.
It gives you pleasure to know…
You …control my every heart beat.
What have I done wrong?, when the real question is…
You…what have you done to show you care?…
and you make me wonder..
I don’t know anymore, I once knew only…
You…now because of you and your words…
I know this…
I won’t break for you anymore…
when all I ever did
Was love you for YOU…
One day you’ll know how much I love you.
One day you’ll know how much it hurt to leave you.
You want to think I didn’t care for you,
When really you are my heart.
One day you’ll know how it took all my resolve
To walk away,
For me trying to understand how to love you,
but yet, my weakness ended our life that day.
One day you’ll know that I didn’t want this to happen, to hurt or be hurt.
the fact is, I could not handle the life, the stress and the disappointment.
My hope is for you to try to understand, My walking away,
was to give you and me a chance at peace, a life without anger, chaos and hurt.
One day you’ll know what I was thinking,
The true reasons why I had to go,
One day I pray that you’ll understand,
That you will finally come around, the truth to know.
One day you’ll no longer think of me with such pain, hate and sorrow,
maybe even begin to think about more tomorrows,
but for now, you think of me as dead, gone from you, the end.
But I did it for you as well as for me.
I’d do anything for you, but my sanity was fleeting and fading away.
I still love you, I will always love you, but for me, my love has to be at bay.
So even if at this moment you cannot forgive,
Every waking moment I will always pray
That one day you’ll know, One day.